I came
down with a cold a week ago—started feeling a little off last Thursday night,
and was flattened on Friday, as was Ken. So I ended up taking a couple of
unexpected days off, which resulted in me feeling alternately panicky about how
behind I was getting, or maudlin because I felt like Lamey McLamerson for not
getting things done. (Hey, I never said it was logical
inside this brain!)
It
reminded me of something Bob Mayer said in the workshop a few weekends ago—that
we have to list our successes and achievements. Not the sales and awards, but
the day-to-day accomplishments. I have questionable success with that because
if there’s a gap, I feel—as I said above—lame and useless. So I also have to
retrain my brain to not look at the gaps, but at the days of productivity and
things crossed off lists, and feel the warmth of what I got done.
So I’m
feeling pretty chuffed right now that I got about 800 words done on the CES
story and got the next chunk off to the editor (this client likes to read
things in 5K chunks), and scribbled some notes for OOTFP
because I finally figured out how to make the transition to the next scene.
I also
took Eostre to the vet, did the dishes, made lunch, paid a bill, filed a few
things, and answered a bunch of Kingdom Chronicler e-mail. (Ken and I both went
to the vet, actually, and he brought dinner home from Versailles because he had
an errand in the Valley, and I’m now stinking out my cold with garlic, hah!)
I am
not thinking about the swaths of e-mail still in my In Box,
or the fact that I haven’t really had time to read Facebook for days (are you
all still out there?), or the freelance jobs I still need to apply for, or the
other parts of the house that need cleaning, or the Styx concert write-ups for
Sarah, or the journal entries yet unwritten, or my website update, or…
::sticks
fingers in ears::
Lalalalaladinosaur!
Tonight I
shall sleep another Nyquil-drugged sleep of the damned, and then tomorrow I
will write more. And get other stuff done. But definitely the writing. Ya’ll
hold me to that, okay?
